Its becoming more and more dystopian to simply be alive in this world.
Who would have thought that merely existing would be enough to peak a persons cortisol levels to a point of finding yourself in fight or flight before you've even gotten to the middle of the day.
I try to remind myself that I should expect to feel bad, I'm chronically sick with multiple life destroying illnesses after all.
But still I worry I will never become used to being this physically weak
I felt happy this morning. My latest posts was getting tens of thousands of views, and it reminded once more that indeed my work is what people want and need to hear right now.
Then a moment later I found out that the post had been removed and I had been threatened with an account ban for "breaking community guidelines".
The same community guidelines that allow women to sell their bodies and twerk in next to nothing, the same community guidelines that allow completely false information regarding genocides, politics, etc.
All while I have to worry about the police coming to my door and arresting me for "hate speech", simply for sharing statistics that were provided by my own government. A government that openly supports genocide but will imprison any who dare to hold a banner in peaceful protest.
I know that Orwell and Huxley feared for the fate of this world, but I do not think they could have ever imagined how quickly their nightmares would become our reality.